I think I'll call it Anxiety

I took some lovely pictures of our garden on my phone. And I have tried more than 3 times to send them from my phone to my computer so I could post them to my blog. But still no success. So this post is not about our garden.

It's about how I'm leaving to Germany in 4 days. FOUR days.

And I'm feeling nervous.

I feel like I need to spend every moment with Nathan- clingy much?

I feel sick of not wanting to practice.

I feel like summer is going by too fast.

I feel like I need a cute black summer scarf.

I worry that I will be allergic to Germany.

I worry that I won't be able to find pseudophed in Germany.

I'm nervous about our "hotel" that I'm pretty sure is more like a hostel.

I'm nervous that the food will make me sick.

I'm nervous that I don't speak ANY German.

I feel like I'll probably snore and my roommates will hate me.

I'm nervous to do my laundry and have to hang-dry my undies.

I hope I don't feel lonely.

I don't like flying- 15 hours is a LONG flight.

I stress about having to carry a suitcase, a carry-on, and a cello through foreign airports.

I know I'll worry about things at home.

Things like health and housing and husbands.

And gardens.

I hope Nathan will be okay to can the tomatoes while I'm gone.

Hopefully he'll make them into salsa or pasta sauce.

Maybe he'll get a new job!

I should have already submitted my curriculum plans to my team teacher.

Maybe I should quit that job?

Nobody wants to team teach general music and orchestra.

I feel like the summer is going to end this Saturday.

And that feels too soon.

I want to feel excited.

I really do.

But even as I'm typing this, I know that I always turn into a little worry wort right before anything big and unknown. I'll probably get to Eutin and love it. And once I figure things out a bit, I'm sure the stress will stop. And I'll really enjoy myself. At least I hope. Pretty sure I'll still be able to blog from "the Germ'. Bis Spater!