Ishtar, my hot Puerto Rican violinist friend, says that all I need to do is think about sex. Probably not the best idea for me right now, Ishy! Yikes.
Pianist friend ashley helped me muster up some strong inner feelings and then after forcing me to play in my emotional state, boosted my ego by telling me I sound like Jackie Du Pre.
I've been trying to feel emotions stronger, be more happy, get more angry, be more dedicated.
I guess I didn't realize the negative results this experiment might have on my life. More depressed? More lonely? Extremely homesick for my missionary? In exploring my suppressed emotions, I've found some very deep ones that in my opinion, are best left alone!
Yesterday was a dark and dismal day. Emotional... yes. Passionate... yes. Productive practice, and incredible cello sound... yes!! But seriously, I can't function on such a constant stream of passion and high emotion. Not like that.
Thus the need for further self revision:
Earlier to bed and earlier to rise. I'm seeking health, wealth, wisdom, and BALANCE. I'm still channeling passion. But hopefully with healthier sleep habits, I'll have better coping skills.
I'm wearing my new pumpkin-color sweater and bright yellow rain boots. I woke up at 7 am with 8 hours of wonderful sleep. I'm feeling strongly optimistic and ready for a fresh start.
The Michigan leaves have chosen today as the day to change color. The world is a beautiful place! This is something to be passionate about.